On Words: Blogging about Blogging

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There are some things in life that you have to do. You have to work if you want to earn an income and advance in your career, even when a day on the beach sounds so very tempting.

You have to wear pants to the grocery store, even when you don’t feel like getting up to put them on but you really want ice cream and that is the only way you’re going to get it.

You also have to pay taxes and go to the doctor and do a lot of other things that aren’t pleasant, but necessary from time to time.

There are also things in life that you do because you like to. You go for long runs by the lake. You drink wine on patios with your girlfriends until you’re laughing really loud and the waiter all but tells you to shut up.

You get your nails done and you go on long road trips for no reason at all.

Then there are some things in life that you do because they’ve become routine.

There is no explaining why you stay in the dead end job you can’t stand but haven’t sent out a single resume, why why you stay in the relationship that no longer makes you feel good about yourself or why you live in a city that has turned you into a person you no longer recognize.

After almost four years of writing here, I was starting to feel like this blog was something I did because I had to do. I wrote here because I always wrote here, even when it was starting to feel like a job that I hated.

So I stopped doing it.

When I started a blog in May 2008 it was because putting words together is what I like to do and typing seemed more efficient than writing in a journal (not to mention that I am pretty certain I exceeded my lifetime quote of marble composition notebooks keeping journals in high schools and I’ll be damned if I ever want to revisit those).

When I wrote my last post in April 2012, this website had turned into a rat race.

I wrote because IĀ had to get a post up and because if I didn’t quickly post the best possible recipe for chipotle chicken fingers, someone else probably would and then they might get a book deal instead of me.

Would I still love to become a published author?

Absolutely.

It also just so happens that I love to write recipes and let’s call a spade a spade: eating is pretty much my favorite.

Yet, when I was taking creative writing classes in college I used to roll my eyes at the prose some of my classmates shared during workshops and fervently wish that I had more classes in the business school building where all of the good looking guys studied between classes.

I took communications classes because I longed to connect with people and what better way to do that than in the communications field? What I really loved to do was write stories and if it wasn’t for the longing I’d always had to be surrounded by people, to be a connector, I might be living a totally different life right now.

I’m not saying I want to be, but that it’s crazy to think about.

Throughout my various phases of wanting to be a teacher or a lawyer or a publicist all I have ever wanted to do is write and the best part about that is that I don’t need a fancy degree or a license and I can do that no matter where I am or what else I am doing from nine to five.

Despite the occasional run-on sentence (which I can’t bring myself to edit), I even think I’m pretty good at it.

I think my point here is that I need to write in a way that feels like me, not the way I feel like I should sound. I’m just not exactly sure what that is yet.

As much as I detest writing a blog post about blogging, I felt as disingenuous returning after three months with a post about risotto as I had started to feel this past winter.

So today, words. Tomorrow, risotto.

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26 Comments

  • Reply
    Aggie
    September 24, 2012 at 7:41 pm

    Oh I have missed you! I know this post is older, & I haven’t been by in a while. I forget what it’s like to read blogs anymore lol. I can relate to your feelings here, I question what I do with my blog often enough. šŸ™‚

    Hope you are well. You were on my mind and I wanted to say hi!

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    Mimi Lorraine
    July 26, 2012 at 6:24 pm

    I only just found you today (after searching for “Appetizers ~ peaches”) and I love this post ~ Thank you for writing it and please know that I am excited to read more ( and I am hardly a regular “blog reader”.)

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    Sarah @ The Smart Kitchen
    July 24, 2012 at 8:00 pm

    Welcome back! I feel like my passion and desire to write on my blog definitely ebbs and flows, but when I think about giving it up, what calls me back is that I feel like I have so much to SAY.

    I hope I continue to love and want to blog for the pure sake of wanting to speak in my voice in this platform.

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    Roz@weightingfor50
    July 23, 2012 at 7:11 pm

    Hi Maris, as usual, I’m late to the party. I’m glad to read your words again. I look forward to reading more, but only when you feel motivated to write them down. In the meantime, I’m sending warm wishes to you. Take care.

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    Alana D
    July 13, 2012 at 9:32 pm

    Take a step back and don’t bother to re-evaluate anything. Sit quietly for long enough and you’ll figure it out.

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    Cate O'Malley
    July 12, 2012 at 9:09 am

    I’ve been writing my site for 7+ years now, and believe me, I totally get it. I think the most important thing is to do it because you *want* to, not out of any sense of obligation. Because that’s the only way to make sure you retain the joy of why you started it to begin with. Welcome back!

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    Kitchen Belleicious
    July 11, 2012 at 1:41 pm

    i have always enjoyed your writing. its refreshing!

  • Reply
    camille
    July 10, 2012 at 10:27 pm

    Glad you felt like writing these words.

  • Reply
    Julie @ Willow Bird Baking
    July 9, 2012 at 10:17 pm

    Love these thoughts, and I share many of them <3 So good to see you!

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    Elizabeth @ The Waspy Redhead
    July 9, 2012 at 5:24 pm

    I’ve missed you! I get this, I so totally absolutely get this. Welcome back, and hope you get what you what from your blog, regardless of if it’s strategic or a best practice or how you feel like you’re supposed to write.

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    Courtney
    July 9, 2012 at 3:25 pm

    So glad you had your much needed break – and much gladder that you are back… and with a great perspective on the blogging world. Hope your love returns completely.

  • Reply
    Kelly
    July 9, 2012 at 8:31 am

    We all need breaks from blogging sometimes (or at least I do). Glad you’re back!

  • Reply
    vianney
    July 9, 2012 at 8:00 am

    Welcome back,

  • Reply
    Kristin
    July 9, 2012 at 7:36 am

    Welcome back! You are such a wonderful and talented writer and I look forward to seeing what comes next šŸ™‚

  • Reply
    Simply Life
    July 9, 2012 at 6:24 am

    I always love reading your posts- you truly have a gift with writing!

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    Sues
    July 8, 2012 at 11:22 pm

    Yay! You have been missed. I totally understand as I can relate (not so much with blogging, but other life things!). Your words are beautiful and so are your food and photos!

  • Reply
    Sarah Caron
    July 8, 2012 at 10:41 pm

    Welcome back.

  • Reply
    Kelly
    July 8, 2012 at 9:38 pm

    I feel this way about a lot of things in my life. I think it takes courage to be so honest with yourself.

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    Susan
    July 8, 2012 at 9:20 pm

    I love your writing and your recipes! Thanks for such a great and honest post.

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    Maureen @ Orgasmic Chef
    July 8, 2012 at 8:01 pm

    I enjoy your writing and I enjoy your food. Rock on!

  • Reply
    mzt1
    July 8, 2012 at 7:51 pm

    I’ve missed you so! Whatever you write puts a smile on my face….and let’s face it…I love to eat too!! So welcome back šŸ™‚

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    Cora @ Cora Cooks
    July 8, 2012 at 7:43 pm

    Oh, Maris! I understand completely and have been MIA myself for a few months with similar reasons. It’s never a bad idea to step back every now and then. Welcome back and best of luck writing on your own terms.

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    Peter
    July 8, 2012 at 7:38 pm

    Yay! Words are neat.

    Write more!

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    vivian
    July 8, 2012 at 7:35 pm

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts and words with us today, Maris! Looking forward to reading more šŸ™‚

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    thatShortChick
    July 8, 2012 at 7:35 pm

    well, no matter how you use this space I’ll be reading!

    also? you are KILLING it with MDF Chicago – makes me wish I lived in Chicago!!

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    Daryl
    July 8, 2012 at 7:24 pm

    It’s really good to see you back!

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